Dear ma,
I am suffering because I broke my vow of chastity. I was a virgin until I started dating my husband — we are childhood friends. I was 28 years old at the time. We both knew we would get married but not just yet. I was doing my internship and was going to apply for a master’s scholarship to do my master’s in the UK. It was at this point that I gave in to temptation and broke my vow and I started sleeping with him. Eventually, I got pregnant and we had to get married earlier than we planned. What has happened is that I have a beautiful girl in a marriage with a man who loves me, but I have missed opportunities. I applied for six master’s scholarships and didn’t get one. The things that happened? I got disqualified from one because I made a mistake, a silly one. I failed a simple question during the interview for one of the scholarships and it affected me. I got reserved for an award for two, but I never got the award. And the others didn’t give any feedback so I guess I didn’t make any headway. But I’m awake now and facing the reality of my stupidity. My husband isn’t working, neither am I. We can hardly feed three times a day. We are wallowing and drowning in debt. And my loving husband is too depressed to even notice me, talk more of having that same sex that landed me in this mess. If he remembers to look at me once a month, then I thank God. I can’t even begin to explain how I feel ma. I feel worthless and ugly. My self-esteem is back to zero. I saw your article today ma; yes it was true. We miss the plan and mess things up for ourselves when we break our vows of chastity!
If only I had waited as I promised God, I could have still married my husband, had this beautiful girl, and actualised my dreams. Because everything was in place until I messed up. Now, I am suffering and crying for a way out.
My darling,
I’m so sorry about your present predicament and I must say God doesn’t joke with vows! Eccles 5:4-6 And the devil just likes to cash in on breaking vows and worse still, defiling the temple of the Holy Spirit. I imagine how you regret your actions and how bad you feel! However, the following Scriptures come to my mind right now is “There is none like unto the God of Jeshurun, who rides upon the heavens in thy help, and in his excellency on the sky.” Deut 33:26 “Who is like unto the Lord our God, who dwells on high, who humbleth himself to behold the things that are in heaven, and in the earth! He raiseth up the poor out of the dust and lifteth the needy out of the dunghill; Psalm 113:5-7 May these Scriptures manifest in your life in Jesus name! May God have mercy on you and your husband and intervene in your matter in Jesus name!
Our God is a good God and I believe He has forgiven you and will eventually give you all you want! I will suggest you turn your mess into a message and preach sexual purity to the youth around you! You can start even within a WhatsApp group, your church, neighborhood, etc. If I were you, while waiting for a job opportunity, I’d turn that to a full time job/ministry, using whatever resources I’ve got! You’ve got a firsthand experience in what could happen when you break a vow with God and you must do all you can to ensure others don’t fall into the hands of the devil! Also, you will be endearing yourself to God and filling yourself with His power! You’d be pleasantly surprised at what God would do for you and your husband before the end of this year- I know what I’m talking about! I look forward to hearing your testimony soonest!
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